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I wasn’t the guy you talked to about one subject. In fact, I was getting really good at talking about anything anyone brought up, thanks to meditation and study. My life is truly different, and everyone’s life is unique. From the start, my goal was to find myself and help others. That’s all I’ve ever cared about.

That book bag was massive! I had everything in it—pens, pencils, and notepads for jotting things down. A history book on Rome, a book on the human brain, and other books that rotated depending on where I was headed, whether it was a church or a park. I didn’t care; I guess I was just trying to find someone like me.

Having a brilliant conversation or learning something new I could verify felt better than getting high, stealing from a store, or getting caught up in worldly situations when I was young. My school life was about survival in some places but genuine learning in others, and that mattered more to me than having a girlfriend.

When I say my life was different, it truly was, because what happened showed me who I really was. I found myself and became one. It’s a long and winding road, it really is. It takes an enormous amount of effort, effort I’ve never seen anyone else willing to put in, inside or outside of churches or anywhere else.

Ron is 63 now, and this all started when he was 15. You know what I mean? I wouldn’t spend my money on this if I thought it was a waste of time. It would be a waste of my time and resources. My whole life, I’ve used what I have to help others, and by most standards, I’m poor. Still, I’m okay and standing my ground. Ron hasn’t changed, but the world sure is.